April 21, 2009

two years

I was drifting in and out of sleep this morning when I heard the rain. A great whooshing sound that I have not heard for months on end... it woke me with a start... and then I woke again as I realized it was the 21st. An anniversary that I have not been dwelling on since I have turned the page... my heart has seemed at peace this April... perhaps healing just a bit more. But two years has passed. Two years since I have heard a friend's laughter and seen the joy light in her eyes. I miss her... I miss Lisa. She is never far from my mind... I still see someone at the store and think for a moment that it might be her... I still glance back at her house when I am in her neighborhood... though it lies empty.

The other day I pulled out the little memorial card from my purse, where it has lived, next to my sticky note. And I read it. No author is listed, but the sentiment on the card was so beautiful...

After Glow
I'd like the memory of me to be a happy one, I'd like to leave an afterglow of smiles when day is done. I'd like to leave an echo whispering softly down the ways, of happy times and laughing times and bright and sunny days. I'd like the tears of those who grieve to dry before the sun, of happy memories that I leave behind when day is done.


I smiled as I read it... and realized... I might be ready for that... I might be ready to see that afterglow that has been hanging all around me. And as I tucked the little card back into it's spot, and clipped it safely into place, I felt a bit of peace. I said another prayer for her family... and thanked God for the privilege of laughing beside my friend.

9 comments:

K said...

I'm sorry for your loss. I don't think you ever get over that sort of thing, but I'm glady your finding peace.

Shelley said...

I love the words on this memorial card! So touching! I bet you have wonderful warm memories of your friend.

Kay said...

I'm sorry you're hurting. But yes, it's a good thing when we can remember more than the fact that they died and carry with us the special things that made them 'them'. And smile. : )

reliv4life said...

I am sorry about your friend, but glad you are finding healing and peace, and now possibly some joy. I pray healing on her family as well. It is hard when people seem taken before their time, when they are still young. Somehow it seems unfair...although I know God is in control.

Busy Bee Suz said...

awww. You are tugging at my heart again....I wish for a peaceful day my friend. Sending good thoughts to you and her family. Hugs, Suz

Songbirdtiff said...

It is so difficult to get over a loss. I'm glad you are able to start really moving ahead and find joy in the life she lived.

Life with Kaishon said...

This made me so sad for you. I am sorry for your loss.

M said...

What a great poem to put a little peace in your day :)

Baby Rocket Dog and Hootie said...

Dear Dawn, I'm sorry for the sadness that you experienced in loosing your good friend.The AfterGlow piece is a fine way to keep her in your heart. The 21st was 15 years since I lost my father and I try to look towards joining him someday in the presense of our Lord. I still cry at times when I least expect it.That's the life of the ones left behind I guess.
Because of Him, Cassie
ps-I'm not logged off from my dogs blog. Too lazy.