February 11, 2018

in the waiting...

I took my last antibiotic this afternoon, and I feel like now I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Was it enough? Will the infection rage back? Do I dare hope it won't? These aren't my best thoughts, and certainly no way to live... but it's hard to overcome them. I'm not doubting God's healing, because I believe He will... I'm just wondering about the when.

It's been a tough season... and maybe that is an understatement. When I last left off, we were in full celebration mode (empty nest, headed to Disney!), but then the hurricane blew through our community, and I followed it up with surgery after surgery, all urology related. Oh yes, the saga continues. A surgery per month through Christmas, and then I spent last weekend in the hospital so I could have IV antibiotics to treat sepsis.

I still consider myself a "better to laugh than to cry" kind of girl, even though I've certainly had my days. It helps to have a strong sturdy guy by my side lifting my spirits, praying words of love, and keeping up the house. He's always been my hero, but now, somehow more so. When I wonder how he can put up with me, I look into his eyes and see only love shining back. I can't begin to find the words to say how thankful I am.

These words, lyrics to a song I am loving, have carried me along...

Slow down, take time
Breath in He said
He'd reveal what's to come
The thoughts in His mind
Always higher than mine
He'll reveal all to come

Take courage my heart
Stay steadfast my soul
He's in the waiting
He's in the waiting
Hold onto your hope
As your triumph unfolds
He's never failing
He's never failing

Take Courage, Kristene DiMarco

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2 comments:

Southern Gal said...

Oh, sweet friend. I'm still praying, still having your name come to mind during the day and night. You are strong, stronger still with him by your side. I love this post. Makes me miss the blogging days of old.

Busy Bee Suz said...

I'm so glad to see you're writing....but wishing it was more celebratory than the 'waiting' game. I'm praying that this last round of antibiotics will do the trick and that the rest of 2018 is full of the "extra" ordinary days that you enjoy so much. XOXO