I took my last antibiotic this afternoon, and I feel like now I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Was it enough? Will the infection rage back? Do I dare hope it won't? These aren't my best thoughts, and certainly no way to live... but it's hard to overcome them. I'm not doubting God's healing, because I believe He will... I'm just wondering about the
when.
It's been a tough season... and maybe that is an understatement. When I last left off, we were in full celebration mode (empty nest, headed to Disney!), but then the hurricane blew through our community, and I followed it up with surgery after surgery, all urology related. Oh yes,
the saga continues. A surgery per month through Christmas, and then I spent last weekend in the hospital so I could have IV antibiotics to treat sepsis.
I still consider myself a "better to laugh than to cry" kind of girl,
even though I've certainly had my days. It helps to have a strong sturdy guy by my side lifting my spirits, praying words of love, and keeping up the house. He's always been my hero, but now, somehow more so. When I wonder how he can put up with me, I look into his eyes and see only love shining back. I can't begin to find the words to say how thankful I am.
These words, lyrics to a song I am loving, have carried me along...
Slow down, take time
Breath in He said
He'd reveal what's to come
The thoughts in His mind
Always higher than mine
He'll reveal all to come
Take courage my heart
Stay steadfast my soul
He's in the waiting
He's in the waiting
Hold onto your hope
As your triumph unfolds
He's never failing
He's never failing
Take Courage, Kristene DiMarco