August 22, 2011

tumbling time

He catches me staring at him, but he smiles anyway.
Typically, I'd get a face, but I think he knows where I am these days, my heart tucked in somewhere between unbelief and amazement. That smile sends me off into a kaleidoscope of memory... light and color changing at every turn. While this moment seems the most beautiful, a quick turn reveals another view... and the first is gone.

The past two weeks he has been playing with the big kids... or so it seemed, when I dropped him off at the high school for band camp. As much as I have been waiting for this, it still seemed surreal. But Friday night, on the field, my field of musical, marching dreams, there was only reality. Auntie leaned over and said he doesn't even look little. Nope. He doesn't. He seems to fit right in. All good, all right

Today is the day of full reality though, with the house bustling before dawn and ringing of the first school bell of the year just minutes away.  He is offically a freshman, which makes her a senior.  I have been waiting for this for years and now I want this moment to last for... forever.  I know better than to put much stock in that wish. 

His first day of high school, her last first day...
Another turn, the light fractures and the colors tumble into yet another pattern... still beautiful, but still for just this moment in time.

5 comments:

Gabe said...

oh friend. . .I'm right there with you! How did they grow up so fast? It has been just a moment in time!

Praying that all goes well for your kiddos~

togetherforgood said...

Happy first day of school. It's our first day too . . . but my house doesn't get quiet when school starts for us. ;)

This is going to be a good year.

Busy Bee Suz said...

This made me tear up...I know you have been anticipating this day for a long time!
I hope you (and they) are able to enjoy every single minute of this momentous year!
xo

Southern Gal said...

Oh, I feel you, Dawn. The joy you feel as they begin their year of high school together. The bittersweetness of it all.
Now I'm doing first days of her nursing job, of his junior year of college and his fourth grade year. Now I'm watching a granddaughter grow up right before my eyes. The kaleidoscope is changing the view quickly.

Kat said...

I must have blinked and Cam turned into a little man. Ninth grade looks all grown up....