March 31, 2012

when hours seem like days...

Yesterday was a long day.
Perhaps that is an understatement.
The surgery lasted two hours past the doctor's prediction and four longer than we hoped for. Oakley came through just fine, with the best news being that his ear bones were intact and were allowed to stay. {thank you, God} He was a trooper, and when I complimented his bravery, he almost smiled and told me I didn't even feel a thing.  

While my sister and her husband waited, and probably watched people come and then go, Gramma and Auntie were the entertainment committee. We toted Chelsea around town in Gramma's lime green bug, with air rushing our faces and our hair blowing wildly. Her chatter made us laugh and grin... and we couldn't help but encourage her love for fashion as we did a few errands.

For a few hours, we lived for her with gusto... and waited on the chirping of text message updates. It was a day of bravery, all around. Holding back the worry-tears can be hard work, and the impromtu prayer session in the shoe department was certainly necessary.

And when it was all said and done, and I was on my way home again... the weight of the day settled over me. Tears rolled, and even as relief was covering me, a sliver of anger danced on through. The whys and the hows and the doubt knocked on my heart and only speaking them aloud would let the banishment begin. The need to let it all go and let forgiveness seep in is right in front of me... but so was this little boy's face.  and the stitches around the back of the ear. and the next surgery he faces. I'll get there.

I thank you for your prayers.
There is certainly comfort in knowing there is a circle of love spinning around you and the ones you love...

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3 comments:

Tina said...

My circle of love is bigger than I had ever anticipated.

I don't want to dwell on the "what should have been's" , there is nothing I can change and looking back, I might have pushed a little harder, but I didn't. All I need to focus on now is the healing and the most bravest boy ever. There tears have come that have eluded me.

And in her words about the pink shoes, " they almost fit me!"

I love you xoxox

Dayle @ A Collection of This and That said...

Glad for the good news.

Busy Bee Suz said...

You are the best....and I am so glad the outcome was good!
I think you should have bought those pink shoes for her, the DO almost fit her!