January 20, 2011

i have loved

I said it outloud for the first time yesterday.  My kids are fourteen and seventeen.  All of the preparation, all of the "they are going to be..." did not prepare me for the real thing, did not prepare my heart for the mix of loss and joy.  I'm not quite sure where the time has gone, I only know that I cannot get it back, except in the memories.  It might go without saying that the tears are rolling, even as I think about it again.

It happens in a blink, it happens in a flash
It happens in the time it took to look back
I try to hold on tight, but there's no stopping time
What is it I've done with my life?
When it's all said and done,
No one remembers how far we have run.
The only thing that matters is how we have loved.
I don't want to miss even just a second more of this.
-lyrics from Blink by Revive.

Oh, I have loved. 
I have loved with the most gentle whispers of butterfly kisses, and the fierceness only a mama knows. 
I have loved... and love still... forever and ever.

7 comments:

Jen said...

Great song lyrics!
love the collage. oh it goes way to fast and believe me the saying about the older you get......is true.

tracie @ tsj photography said...

many tears i have falling. i am facing a trial and this post goes straight to my heart. thank you Lord for speaking through this sweet & precious woman ...

Richella said...

So now tears are rolling for me. "The fierceness only a mama knows." It's true, isn't it?

This is an "even" year for me. Once June gets here, I'll be saying that my kids are 20, 18, and 14.

Blink. Blink blink.

Life with Kaishon said...

This makes me cry. It does happen so quickly. In the blink of an eye.

Busy Bee Suz said...

It is what happens in the middle of the blink that is amazing.
Beautiful!!!!
**hugs**

Kat said...

I realized that one day, too soon, I'll be saying those exact words. Fep will be seventeen and Moose fourteen. I just can't even fathom that right now, but I know that when it happens, it will seem like just yesterday that I typed these words.

jenn said...

i can't even type I am crying so hard!! beautiful!